At the risk of sounding like and awful person...

The reason I am enrolled in this institution of higher learning is to do just that.. learn. Apparently I am a freak of nature, and of our popular culture for that matter, and academic apathy runs rampant in the veins of this student body.

Finally

I am sitting here in my new suite with my roomate while she listens to Boyz2Men and Maroon5 and we discuss nothing in particular, except it is a mutual sadness that we miss our sweet little apartment more than we ever thought we would. Our Suitemate is nice and seemingly easy to live with so far, but it has certainly taken getting used to having someone else added into the equation. Yet, there is a pleasant comfort and the closet feeling of home being here in this world of OC. All of our friends have returned, and while life is always changing... these people are as familiar as a hometown. It is nice to be in this company. Most of all, I am enjoying the forever presence of the love of my life.

Jars of Clay gave a free concert last night and I was more excited than anyone else in my group was, but I did not care, they soothe my soul and I could listen to Dan Hasseltine all night. It was wonderful.

My Harry Potter depression has lifted... sorry to have sounded so vindictive in my earlier blog, I promise it was not directed at any particular individual. I was set off by a more recent incident and got fed up. Sorry honey.

Some people just don't understand

I have Post- Harry Potter Depression.

I also have mean and pointed words for people who find it the least bit comical to reveal anything about the ending of the latest addition to the series.

You obviously do not get it, it is very rude and I am beyond frustrated at the fact that it was ruined.

It was worth reading it for myself anyway, I mean how could I not?
But seriously ~


by the way Sam... how long did this particular 'spell' last you and doug?

oh goodness

I started my new job today and I am so thankful that I met my quota for selling jeans and I didn't even know I had a quota. Plus , I love the dress code, but I am pretty sure I may have fractured my foot bones after wearing my heels on marble. Haha.

After all the insanity leading up to my first day of work, I am relieved that it went well. God gave me peace, finally...but I should have remembered He always does. I am recognizing that I have been having some serious anxiety issues, the source is unbeknowst to me. But a sucessful first day has a certain burden-lifting effect. That, and having someone in your life who would walk you into work if they could and hold your hand, but instead pray with you the whole drive to work. [I had my eyes open so I did not crash my car ;) ] Anyways, God is always faithful to me, I have no idea why I doubt Him at all.


Oh what a tangled web we weave..."

not even sure there is a good title

Do you ever consider that the meaning of an apology or the resolution of a problem would cause the problem to desist? Is not that the point of a solution? Then what, pray tell, would be the point in ever bringing anything up for discussion if you have to bring up the same concern more than once? It makes one feel foolish and even like an annoyance. Is it better to ignore and push away or resolve until resolved? Ignoring a matter or ignoring the solution of it just breeds pain and confusion. Then what would be the solution to that?

still feeling sick.

hmm...

I wanted to update my blog, but I do not have anything of humor or consequence to post. There has not been much on my mind lately except my stomach. The uneasiness it feels from too much lean cuisine and this awful diet, the butterflys that have made their home there in regards to this new job, and the general sinking feeling that is inside my tummy when I consider this next school year in general. Is it stress? Is it nervousness? Is it disappointment? Or is it unwarrented fears? Probably all of the above... but no matter the cause... my stomach os not well.