I am starting a Feminist Movement!!!!!!

Following a meeting with a professor of mine in which the words "If you don't go to graduate school, you're stupid, it'd be a waste..." clung in the air around my mind and have followed me around for a couple of days.

I have been engaging myself in introspection these last couple weeks and I have determined that I do not have any tiny hearts desire to go to graduate school and that if I choose not to project myself into the veins of the professional world, I will not be a failure.

No matter what I choose I will leave this institution an educated woman with the not only the freedom, but the RIGHT to decide which path to continue on and how to employ my education. Notice how I say "how to employ" and not "whether or not I employ". My eduation and the knowledge I take from here will be mine always and it is something that no one can dismiss or take away from me during this lifetime.

It is because of certain modern organizations of women that I have never called myself a feminist and have felt insulted at the thought of being categorized as one, until today. I am not a feminist in the modern connation of the word because I believe that the way it is defined today is not Feminism. Unfortunatley, it is difficult to alter a social definition so I will call myself a classical feminist in the same way that I am a classical liberal.

It offends me that modern feminism would have the audacity to belittle other women and descriminate against them because of their right to choose other values above their careers. It is not acceptable in any way for women to feel that they are a "waste" or "stupid" within our society if they do not pursue professional advancement in their career field.

I would like to start a Political Action Committee dedicated and created for women, like myself, who are educated and in every way believe themselves to be equals in society but also hold the belief that it is just as sucessful to stay home with their children or use thier education in a different fashion than being professionally sucessful according to society's standards.

This PAC would be conservative, pro-life, pro-family, pro-women. I feel like educated women like myself who holds this opinion and are comfortable with the idea of mothers staying home with their children , if they are able to, are underrepresented. While it is not everyone's ability or luxury, the problem is the attitude toward those who choose who do from extreme "feminist" ideologies that are currently permeating the young minds in our society and is its own form of sexism.

So, this is my latest tirade but I certainly hope that this goal will eventually come to fruition whether by myself or someone else who feels the same way.

God, you have until Monday.

I have heard over and over that people who are prone to stressing out can expect to knock several years off of their life span. I have no idea how scientific that tidbit actually is, but the problem with it is that people like me proceed to worry about how much they are stressing. This is counterproductive and perpetuates the whole sickness.

Recently, as in the last two days, I have achieved some interesting self-discovery. I have a problematic tendency to overwhelm myself and mask it as "stepping up to the challenge" when really I am just refusing to delagate and not able to correctly identify my own breaking point.

Unfortuantely, this leads then to complete discouragement of my time management skills and confidence and an obsession with "what-ifs".

I began to realize all this when I found myself praying and trying to have an intimate time with God and ask for peace and wisdom in some decisions. I stopped mid-prayer because it dawned on me that I had just told God that I must have an answer by Monday at the very latest.

hmmmm.

I really don't think that was wise and I am quite shocked at myself.
If you ever wanna hear God laugh, tell Him your plans.

So here I am. My head pounds while I wait patiently for the fateful Monday which will determine this semester with the feeling that it will be one of those forks in the road of life that alters so many paths. But I must be still and know that He is God, I suppose that is the best plan.

"Sometimes beauty school sounds so appealing."- lovely Dacia